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[darkov]

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latest status update 3/6/2018

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[h2no]

[he shouldn't press. it's clearly making martin uncomfortable. he really shouldn't press.]

Why do you think that?

[goddamnit.]

[darkov]

It just...is. [exhale.] Sorry. It's different, where I'm from. I don't think I can explain it right.

[h2no]

Okay. I get sometimes it's hard to explain stuff.

[his curiosity doesn't waver, though.]

Uh-- do you want help finding somewhere? You're an imPort so you can basically have a house to yourself, if you want.

[darkov]

Oh, it... It's alright, sir. You don't have to do that. You already--I mean...you've already done enough nice things for me. It doesn't feel right to take more. From you, or...or any of the others. [ergh.] And I think--I mean, I don't know if it's worse...to accept more help, or...or try to figure it out on my own. But if less people are involved, then...that should be the right thing to do?

[when did this start become asking for verification, again? wasn't he just trying to refuse? why he do this.]

[h2no]

I feel like all I've done so far is confuse you and bombard you with questions...

[he sighs softly.]

I won't force anything. I understand you can take care of yourself, but... if you get overwhelmed or need a hand don't feel bad for asking, yeah?

[darkov]

N-no, it's! It's fine. I'm--sorry, I'm just...not very smart. That's all. Sorry. [a hesitation.] But--thank you. Sir. I mean, it...it is kind of you to, to ask. Or bother at all. I mean, regardless of why, I guess. You don't have to, but I guess that's...that's just because you're good.

[h2no]

[there it is again...]

Martin... you don't have to say you think you're stupid. You're not.

[sorry, he expects.]

[darkov]

...

[hh.]

Sorry.

[SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!]

[h2no]

[THERE IT ISSS]

It-- uh. It's okay. Do you feel that way because everything's so different?

[darkov]

I...I guess there's that. But I'm already not...not the brightest. Or fastest. Or biggest. Or...much of anything good, really. That's--that's true enough, back home. It's...true enough here, too.

[h2no]

[he hates that martin feels like that, and most of all he hates that he feels the same way a lot of the time. never good enough for anyone.]

...


Sorry.


[HOW THE TURNTABLES]

[darkov]

[oh. wow. Marty's least favorite thing: people apologizing to him, as if that's ever a thing that needs to happen.

a beat.]

It--it's not anything to do with you. Or, or anyone. So...don't worry about it. You don't, don't even have to think about it at all.

[h2no]

[HOW
THE
TURN
TABLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

N--no, it's just... it's not nice feelin' that way. I'm sorry you do.

[darkov]

[aaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA]

I-I don't--I mean. It's...You don't have to...think about it, if it makes you feel bad?

[h2no]

[it's lucky martin can't see him, archie thinks, because he takes a moment to mute his end and scream into a pillow. holy shit he is fucking this up SO BADLY, HE HAS TO BE. THERE'S NO WAY ANYONE IN THIS CONVERSATION FEELS GOOD ABOUT ANYTHING.]

Huh? No-- I just, know how it is. It sucks.

[darkov]

...

[this is kind of the worst. Martin, Martin's the worst. just sitting here, talking to a faceless voice and making him feel bad and apologize for nothing.]

I'm sorry. [WOW!!! NICE SAVE! NICE SAVE! NICE SAVE! chat is disabled for 10 seconds]

I...Maybe I should go.

[h2no]

It's fine. I'll leave you to it. I just wanted to make sure you were okay, anyway.

[WHAT IF HE GOES FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!]

I'm glad you are. It'll be okay.

[darkov]

[OF COURSE HE WILL; WHAT, YOU THINK HE REMEMBERS HOW TO TURN THIS SHIT OFF???]

...

[THIS IS HIM ""LEAVING"" OK]

[h2no]

[fortunately, archie hangs up first, so the connection is cut.

the last thing martin needs is a buttdial.]